7w5d u/s - The Big Test

I call it the big test because this was an unplanned ultrasound. I normally go on the first day of each week (6w1d, 7w1d, etc.) but at my 7w1d appointment, my RE didn't see any growth or a heartrate increase. He told me it could just be early technology and that I should come back today at 7w5d to be checked again by him.

I have morning (read: ALL DAY) sickness anyways. It's pretty bad and I have it pretty much all the time. This morning I seriously thought I was going to toss my cookies a few times. Before we left, in the car, walking up to the office, in the room. It was awful. I try not to stress, but we've lost twins before. I can not lose these babies. I just can't.

My RE told us that he wanted to see appropriate growth between Monday and today. That was his main concern, not necessarily how I'm measuring week/day wise because I very well could have had late implanters or they could just be a little slow and pick up later on.

The good news: both babies are now measuring 6w5d, up from 6w2d on Monday. Both babies heartbeats went up too from 100 and 109 to 118 and 115. :) We could actually hear their heartbeats today which we haven't been able to up to this point, it just sounded like static. My RE was pleased with the progress and said that while we aren't out of the woods obviously since we aren't holding a baby right now (he's very adamant that being "safe" or "successful" is holding a live baby) he thinks that we're making really good progress and he's happy with how well we're doing.

I'm also being watched extra carefully now. Normally at my clinic, you're released at 8 weeks to your OB. In my case, my RE said that he's going to watch me until 9-10 weeks. He doesn't want to let me go until he's extremely confident that I have a sustainable pregnancy and he's done everything he can. Once I'm released I'll be sent to my OB (who may refer me to a high risk OB or perinatologist) and also monitored by my Maternal Fetal Medicine practice. I'm confident that I'm in good hands, but I'm going to miss the weekly ultrasounds. They're comforting.

Thank you everyone that prayed for us and kept us and our babies in your thoughts. I was never really a religious person, but my husband and I have prayed every night for these babies. We have always said, we didn't care what we had to do, we will do anything in our power to try to have at least one healthy, live child in our arms. If someone out there has been listening to us and sparing us another heartache, thank you.

Please pray/keep our babies in your thoughts

We went in today for our 7w1d ultrasound and my RE measured the babies at 6w2d with heartbeats of 100 and 109. Obviously this is similar to last week although the actual babies looked completely different and much bigger and more defined to both my husband and myself.

We're hoping that we're just victims of technology and that there was just some bad measuring last week to this week and that when we go back on Friday we have some growth from today. My RE is looking to see mostly a growth spurt between today and Friday to confirm that it's just measuring too early and the difference in two different doctors measuring.

Please keep these little ones in your thoughts and prayers so that on Friday I have some great news to pass along and this little scare is the only one we have this pregnancy. I can not fathom losing these twins too.

6w1d Ultrasound

Baby A: 105bpm, measuring 6w1d

Baby B: 96bpm, measuring 6w4d

We are so overjoyed and so cautiously happy! This is such a dramatic difference than last time and gives us hope that these will be our strong, healthy, live babies!

(u/s pictures to come later)

5w1d - Ultrasound

My husband and I went this morning for our first ultrasound at 5w1d. My RE does them every week from 5w1d through release, normally 9w1d. Here's what we saw:

Two sacs. :) They're within the size range for this point in pregnancy (.5 to 1cm) and my beta is 6800+. By my calculations, it should have been around 4800 if it was doubling, but with twins it would be higher.

We're being really, really cautious since next week at 6w1d is when things starting going wrong for us last time. My RE is really optimistic that we have the issues figured out and calls me himself now for all my tests. We're just really hoping and praying that we see two little heartbeats next week and that these babies stick and become our live, healthy babies.

Scared

My first ultrasound is Monday at 5w1d and I am scared out of my mind. 6w is really when things started going down hill last time, but the pressure not only to see how many sacs there are, but that they're the right size, that they maybe have a fetal pole, etc. is terrifying.

I feel pregnant. Oh my god do I feel pregnant. I'm nauseous after almost anything I eat and somethings I eat make me sick right away (BBQ chicken pizza for example). I'm bloated too. Like, even the "loose" jeans that are a size bigger are getting slightly tight around my lower tummy. I just know that I felt pregnant last time too. :( I really, really hate these scary feelings. I just want to be happy.

2nd Beta

It almost tripled! It went from 99 on Friday to 271 today! :) My RE called me himself to tell me and he sounded really happy for us. My first ultrasound is on the 27th at 5w1d to check how many sacs there are, then at 6w1d for heartbeat(s). :)

Beta #1!

I moved up my beta to this morning instead of Sunday since I had a positive HPT yesterday. I tested again this morning and holy dark line! It's about twice as dark as it was yesterday, so I had a good feeling about the beta.

I waited all day (went in at 7am, was home by 7:40) for them to finally call back. At 2pm, my phone finally rang and the nurse gave me the good news. My beta was 99 at 7dp5dt. They normally look for 100 at 9dp5dt! I go back on Sunday to have a repeat beta drawn to make sure it's doubling, then they should be able to schedule my first ultrasound for around the 28th to check how many sacs there are. :)

The one kinda blah thing is that my RE is starting me on Lovenox. My MFM didn't feel it was really necessary, but my RE is being extremely cautious and having me do that, plus low-dose aspirin and 6.4mg of folic acid for my MTHFR. I'm happy he's being so cautious, I'm just so freaking sick of shots. More than likely, I'll be on the Lovenox, once a day, until my third trimester.

I just want this baby(ies) to stick this time. We want this so bad and were so heartbroken last time when I miscarried. I so hope that we have the issues figured out and we have a live baby(ies) come the end of March.