Scared

My first ultrasound is Monday at 5w1d and I am scared out of my mind. 6w is really when things started going down hill last time, but the pressure not only to see how many sacs there are, but that they're the right size, that they maybe have a fetal pole, etc. is terrifying.

I feel pregnant. Oh my god do I feel pregnant. I'm nauseous after almost anything I eat and somethings I eat make me sick right away (BBQ chicken pizza for example). I'm bloated too. Like, even the "loose" jeans that are a size bigger are getting slightly tight around my lower tummy. I just know that I felt pregnant last time too. :( I really, really hate these scary feelings. I just want to be happy.